When I learned
of Werner’s death at ninety-four, I was taken by surprise. I had never forgotten my interview with him
for a magazine article: his presence at
the dining-table at right angles to me, but sitting quite upright and staring
straight ahead, a proud cast of a man, as if reading an autocue running across
the window opposite. Indestructible, he
seemed, as if moulded from rock. Even
his hard, inanimate face held a bluish metallic tone, his inner elbows a
shocking deeper blue running to inflamed red, as if he’d burnt himself in the
kitchen.
Some would
contend that repressed anger is like a corrosive acid burning the soul, while
others might argue that anger focused for a purpose recharges one’s batteries,
sustains the glow of self-righteousness or is a manifestation of stubborn
will. Werner’s intense gaze at nothing
concrete was chilling. It reminded me
of my father.
I was born of German parentage in
Dusseldorf in the state of North Rhine-Westphalia. After spending four years in primary school and six in high
school, I matriculated in 1936, one of the last Jewish students to do so before
the Nazi crackdown on Jewish institutions.
It was my ambition to study engineering, but all Jewish students were now
prevented from going to university.
Since anti-Jewish sentiments were deliberately inflamed by the Nazis, I
decided to study in Zurich, where the engineering syllabus in the technical
colleges was similar to that of Germany’s educational system: six semesters over three years and familiar
course content. I possessed the
qualifications, so there was no need to take exams, but I did require six
months of work experience in the field.
By October, 1936 my chances of success
looked fairly easy but one class appeared difficult – technical drawing. However, I took an extra class in the
Christmas vacation, one bonus being that practical laboratory sessions gave
access to lecturers for further assistance.
It was my intention to return to Germany during vacations, but after
1937 my passport expired. A friendly
passport control officer confided that I might not be able to return to
Switzerland if I re-entered Germany. He
gave me to understand that I would be dispatched to a re-training camp for
instruction in Nazism.
In 1938 my brother, who was six years
older, found it increasingly difficult to work with my uncle under the Nazi
regime and decided to emigrate to distant relations in the USA. But the number of applicants was so high
that the American Government established quotas. Already a growing trickle of Jews and non-Jews was fleeing at
night across the border to France, Belgium and Holland, countries that suffered
in the early years of war. Fortunately,
my brother received a visa in 1938, about the time of Neville Chamberlain’s
Peace Agreement.
I travelled through France along the
German border in order to meet my uncle and parents across the Channel in
London. Troops were assembling on
stations, ships were already crowded.
At Liverpool Street station my uncle said, ‘You look so pale.’ I was still suffering the effects of
seasickness. I hadn’t seen my parents
for two years but stayed at their boarding house before making the return
journey by train to Switzerland. That
was where my security lay as well as my studies.
In Germany pressure was continually
mounting on the Jews. Many were caught
by the Nazis, shoved into trains and consigned to death camps in the east.
I happened to be staying with my parents
in Richmond, near London when the British Government declared war on Hitler’s
Germany on September 3, 1939. But no
action was taken until Germany invaded her neighbours, including parts of
Scandinavia. At that time I was feeling
quite comfortable residing in England, then local tribunals began an
investigation to classify foreigners.
My parents and I were classified
Category C, so we were allowed to move around freely, except in coastal areas,
but ordered to hand in all cameras and not use a car. Foreigners classified as Category A were interned immediately –
non-Jewish Germans and some Jewish ‘suspects’ (some of whom were later
transferred to the Dunera). Foreigners classified as
Category B were subjected to restrictions of movement and regular reporting to
police. At the 1940 tribunals I was
recalled but mercifully classified again as Category C.
In the early days of war the public were
worried, almost panicky about foreigners.
For instance, I belonged to a tennis club which organised social nights
and boasted a licensed bar. But about
the time of the evacuation of the British Expeditionary Force from Dunkirk, the
atmosphere grew more heated, more suspicious.
Would the German advance to the coast lead to a possible invasion of
Britain? Any foreigner could be
suspected of Nazi sympathies or espionage.
In 1940 I was asked to leave the tennis club, though some members were
sympathetic. However, I sensed the
unease and witnessed the preparation of armaments and the use of searchlights
before air raids actually began. If Hitler had pressed his advantage at Dunkirk
then and sanctioned an invasion of Britain, the Germans would surely have
triumphed.
During June and July further internment
of foreigners took place and rumours about their fate ran rife. The police warned me to pack my possessions.
On July 2nd my father and I were detained at
Kempton Park in primitive conditions, slept on a concrete floor with blankets,
took cold showers. Then my father was
taken to the Isle of Man, while I was sent by train to Huyton, near Liverpool,
not knowing what to expect. It mostly
rained at the camp, so everything got damp in the tent. Nor was the food very wholesome in the meal
tents. Meanwhile my uncle was involved
in war work at a manufacturing establishment, so he was not interned.
In the camps there was no communication
with the outside world, only rumours.
We interns didn’t know what had happened to our families back in
Germany.
My father
never spoke about his war. Not to
me, at least. Now and again my mother
would remind me: ‘Don’t upset your father by asking about the war. He’s bottled it up for years.’ It was my mother who told me the little I
knew.
Apparently,
Dad didn’t refuse the draft; he actually looked forward to his national service
in Vietnam. When the official letter in
the brown envelope arrived informing the family that his name had come up in
the ballot, he responded eagerly to the call of duty, determined to make the
most of this experience. How many of
the fifty-five thousand nashos could claim that? Not to mention the draft-dodgers. At first his enthusiasm was swept along by the gung-ho rhetoric
of politicians and the military that demarcated the ideological
battle-lines: the democratic tradition
of a free, open society defending itself against the proletarian dictatorship
of Marxist-Leninism. But Dad wasn’t
prepared for what soon followed.
Cleaning up the battlefield on fatigues, heaven knows what horrors those
green conscripts witnessed, deadly quiet as they mooched about that gruesome
task. Most of those innocents abroad
simply withdrew into themselves.
I reluctantly volunteered to join one of
the transports. Three transports
departed for Canada, but one was torpedoed on the first day at sea. About one thousand lives were lost,
including crew and guards. Survivors
were taken back to Liverpool on overcrowded lifeboats.
On July 10, 1940, the Dunera lay in
Liverpool Harbour, its destination unknown.
The Dunera boys speculated that
they might be sent to Canada, near the USA border.
Officially, we were allowed only forty
kilos of luggage, but we were told to drop everything on board and
searched. If we didn’t comply, troops
seized our possessions, especially our valuables and personal documents. We were never to see them again. The
officers looked on and tolerated the rough handling meted out.
We were pushed downstairs into the hold
below sea level, lower deck no.3. The
artificial light was dingy. There were
no toilet facilities except chamber pots that soon overflowed. Once again we were searched by NCOs, before
finally getting something to eat. Many
of us were expected to sleep on long mess tables for ten or twelve men. Some of us were issued with hammocks - although
there weren’t nearly enough - mats or tables or benches to sleep on with some
blankets. Even so, it was difficult to
get to sleep.
Then during the night, the ship’s engines rumbled
disturbingly. On the second morning I
heard a noise like thunder, as if something violent had struck the ship. The seas were rough and some men were
seasick, others panicked, but getting upstairs was forbidden by guards with
bayonets mounted, as the lights flicked on and off. Clearly, something must have happened, but the Dunera
boys were not told. However, some of us
did notice the ship zig-zagging. We
were in a convoy of thirty-odd vessels, but soon parted ways with them. Now we were accompanied by one solitary
destroyer.
From the top of the decks, we could see
for ourselves other ships dispersing into the distance. After a few hours our destroyer also
disappeared. Later we learned of the
U-boat attack outside Liverpool. When
the Dunera turned direction, observers realized that we were going south, not
west to Canada or the USA.
The guards called for volunteers to
report to the kitchen to carry food down below, but the Irish Sea was extremely
rough. I was sick for at least a day,
but managed to gain access to the upper deck next day. When extra hammocks were issued, sleeping
became more comfortable. I was still
sick, though, and there was no cleaning up.
In a voice of
monotonous evenness, Werner continued his humourless narrative, relentlessly,
in those hard, clipped sounds, as if he knew the script off by heart, without
changing s single word, preserved forever in aspic. I’ve made alterations, which he would have fiercely resisted, for
although his English expression was competent, occasionally his choice of word
or idiom was not up to the mark. After
a two-hour sitting, by which time I’d had enough, not because his story didn’t
fascinate me, but his voice went droning on irrespective of my mental
fatigue. Only once did his voice
waver: when he mentioned his son, who
wasn’t in the least interested in keeping the Dunera scandal alive in living memory. And although the grandson had once been
enthralled by Werner’s dangerous Hollywood adventure, that romantic world must seem
light-years away to him now.
The Dunera stopped at several
African ports between Liverpool and the Cape, such as Takarari, where the free
French fleet was based. Inside our ship
the tropical conditions were unbearably hot, but we were only allowed on deck
for a mere half-hour each day.
Sometimes the sea was too boisterous for exercise. Always under guard, we could be pushed with
a rifle butt for the slightest misdemeanour.
Without shoes, we’d find ourselves walking on broken glass, for the troops
drank negligently.
We docked for two days and nights at
Cape Town, but we still had no access to our luggage, not even our
underclothes. Our cases were opened
forcefully by the Captain and clothes laid out on tables to be identified. Many luggage labels were torn off, for the
crew didn’t care. Luckily, I was still
a member of the clothing party and we blokes enjoyed the freedom to go on deck
and visit parts of Cape Town and Table Mountain.
Once round the Cape, I was granted a
ship’s bed with white linen. The
medical officer, an understanding man, suspected that I had appendicitis. I lay in hospital for four days, then
returned to quarters. It was back to
routine. The clothing party exhibited
an assortment of clothes on various decks.
About a week out of Liverpool, we Dunera boys learnt
that we were going to Australia. After
seven weeks at sea, we crossed the equator and arrived at Fremantle in Western
Australia, where we caught sight of troops on the mainland. On the following day we left for Melbourne.
The sea was rough in the Australian
Bight, but we were seasoned sailors now.
We enjoyed healthier food, such as an apple every day. In Fremantle we all submitted to a medical
examination. Our hands were examined
for skin disease. I was disgusted with
my clothes and appearance – I’d lost weight.
A report was made by the Australian army to the British army. Consequently, we were issued with shaving
gear that had been confiscated. All of
us had arrived unshaven but managed to clean up a little.
Early one morning we landed in Sydney
and disembarked under the eyes of British troops as well as the Australian
police and army, who were amazed at this strange lot of arrivals, many with
ragged and torn clothes and some without shoes. They suspected something was wrong - they had officially been
told to receive German POWs and paratroopers!
The boys were transported on four
trains of wooden carriages. From the
first moment the guards started conversing in a friendly manner, doling out
cigarettes and chocolates and bonhomie.
Some of them had served in Palestine, where they had experienced contact
with Jews. The contrast between British
and Australian guards was the difference between night and day. In addition, the boys received much-appreciated
food parcels from ladies auxiliaries.
On the journey we spotted the remnants of bush fires, blackened areas of
burnt tree stumps and leaping kangaroos.
What amusement these dear animals gave us! I can’t remember the boys chuckling so much.
When that
horrific photograph of that young girl hit the front pages, Dad was devastated. Mum said it happened in 1972. A nine year-old girl - she even remembered
her name - Kim
Phuc, running naked toward the camera, her back covered in burning oil. Napalm melted the flesh from the bone. Amazingly, she survived, but knowledge of
the cruel suffering of innocent citizens caused a tide of revulsion against the
war. Later when Dad returned home, even
our neighbours accused him of being a killer, an animal, a heartless bastard. When he eventually laid eyes on that photo,
I doubt whether he ever scraped that sickening image from his mind. About that time he would be tossing and
turning in bed, Mum said, waking up in a sweat with a start, whimpering, even
occasionally shouting, ‘Get your bloody head down! The fucking gooks are out there!
And there! And there!’
Then
there was a story breaking about the deleterious efforts of herbicides and
defoliants. Denied by the Australian
Government, of course. But again the
photographic evidence of babies born with clubfeet, cleft palates, enlarged heads,
missing limbs . . . so the list of deformities continued ad nauseam.
Dad’s severe headaches and muscular
twitching gave way to unpredictable mood swings. Never could he relax, unwind, just let go. You could tell from that wild look in his
eyes that he was a haunted man, living in the lurid jungle shadows of his
mind. He refused to see a
psychiatrist. Even refused to seek
counselling from the Vietnam Veterans’ Action Association, he was that
ashamed. Of course, the RSL didn’t want
to know him. Nor did the army
acknowledge the symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. Even the medical profession smugly, cruelly
dismissed claims for PTSD, since clearly proven to be a genuine and absolutely
understandable condition suffered in extremely stressful situations. However, the Australian army was at pains to
differentiate itself from the American military. Its top brass maintained that Australians killed only armed soldiers
in the jungle and did their utmost to avoid civilian casualties, whereas the
Yanks often got away with indiscriminate brutality. Until My Lai, that is, with those shocking revelations in
November, 1969 of disgusting atrocities.
We travelled through the night, some
boys sleeping on the floor with Dunera blankets; some slept in luggage racks. We passed through Young, Cootamundra, then Hay at seven o’clock in the morning, where
we were received by Australian troops, some middle-aged, some who had served in
the Middle East.
There would be no more rough treatment, we realized. After all, the Dunera boys were held
on behalf of the British Government with no intent of jurisdiction, but with
the responsibility of care. One
thousand men would be accommodated, twenty-eight to a hut. Another thousand slept on the floor with
blankets. They were fed in relays from
two kitchens. I warmly remember that
first day - tasty sandwiches, fresh apples and oranges. Officers helped, for they were short of
hands. Many of the boys quaffed food,
especially the fresh fruit.
The spokesman of the two or three
hundred orthodox Jews on the Dunera was Andrew Eppenstein. The
group included a number of rabbis who broached the Captain about their fate,
but it was the troops who were effectively in command. No news was filtering through, but some lads
might have received news by way of Cape Town.
The rest of the journey was
uneventful. At last it was wonderful to
be able to relax when meeting Australian guards on trains. Many of the boys spoke good English but
couldn’t understand the Australian accent.
The generous treatment accorded us on
our arrival, such as hot tea and cakes and chocolate, would never be
forgotten. Such generous fare formed
our first impressions of Australia, most favourable impressions indeed, and
these continued through internment, with the result that no escapes were
attempted, no tunnels dug. In any case,
we could see the edge of the desert so there was nowhere to slope off to even
if we’d wanted to. In the distance we
could discern the houses of Hay, a few inhabitants and children, and that was
enough for the present. Occasionally,
we made excursions to the river.
The clothing party continued for six
weeks to examine all luggage stored in the huts to identify clothing and
documents to hand back. But about
thirty per cent of luggage had disappeared, and some thrown overboard,
particularly in those early days of the voyage. Later we were entitled to claim compensation from the British
Government.
At Hay there were thirty-six huts in
each of two compounds, each with a captain and parliament; and a camp spokesman
who had access to the commanding officer, who was amenable to whatever meetings
were required. The treatment by
officers and guards was very cordial.
There was a daily inspection of huts:
beds properly made and clothing folded; and kitchens inspected. There were also daily roll calls – two or
three times a day at first – so the sense of army routine was quickly
established.
The two camps had some communication with each other, but no
direct contact, though there were two working parties in the same
vicinity. Eventually, workshops were
established to repair shoes. Some boys
were trained tailors who could repair clothing and uniforms. Others had trades and vocations, such as
hairdressers. We acquired tools to manufacture tables and chairs to furnish
huts. I myself gained carpentry skills
from tradesmen friends. It all helped
to pass the time. Also we appointed
night guards on two-hour shifts to attend to anyone who might have got sick and
check that everything was in order. I
obtained some writing equipment and started to write diaries. I’d already taken notes on the Dunera,
but I had to be cautious. I deemed it expedient to make no reference to the
British guards’ rough treatment. These
notes I used to write up a proper diary, which I later typed to complement my
life in the army.
In camp, organized sport was
enthusiastically welcomed. Franz
Stampfl, who over a decade later coached Roger Bannister toward breaking the
four-minute barrier for the mile, directed physical exercise, handball and
fistball. Consequently, I regained
fitness and recovered my average weight within a few weeks. Australian kitchen crews worked alongside my
own people, as several Jews had been employed in the food industry. They were able to prepare better meals from
ample food supplies in the Riverina. A
canteen was organized, which included clothing from the Sydney branch of
Myers. One could order sleeping bags
and straw palliasses. Each bed had a
fine mattress and five blankets, so proved comfortable but cold at night. The camp organized private cafes selling
cups of coffee and homemade cakes.
Money was sent by families.
Payment of one shilling per day was made for jobs done in camp, such as
night guards or cleaners of latrines.
Such a small sum enabled inmates to buy from the canteen such items as
cigarettes, toothpaste, razor blades, condensed milk, soft drinks and chocolate
but no beer. Access to mail, including
airmail and cablegrams to England and the USA, took three weeks, so any news
might be quickly outdated.
The British Home Office organized a
representative, Major Julian Layton, to investigate the inmates’ situation and
offer assisted passage from the middle of 1941. The first vessel returned to Britain in convoy via New Zealand
and Panama. One vessel with forty men
on board was torpedoed. But
approximately 1100 returned to Britain by 1942 or ‘43. Major Layton made several visits to
Australia and interviewed many of the Dunera boys, making himself open to any requests,
which he referred back to the Home Office or relatives in England.
By the end of 1942 all the Dunera boys had been transferred to Tatura with a short interval
in Orange. Three hundred men in May and
July, 1941 were selected from patients suspected of heart tremor. They were detained in the grounds of the
camp in Orange and kept under guard on their daily walks. The Australian guards, however, were
friendly. The locals gave us curious
looks – we weren’t soldiers but were issued with army greatcoats dyed red! The remainder of the Hay inmates was
transferred.
Tatura boasted thirteen camps: one for refugees from the Dunera; one for
refugees off the Queen Mary from Singapore; one for single; and one for married men. The camp at Tatura was similar to that at
Hay, but not as cold in winter. We
stayed there until the end of 1941 to early 1942 after the USA had entered the
war on December 7, 1941.
The day of my
father’s return to Australia was utterly soul-destroying. He was forever embittered, for when he
arrived home in the dead of night there was no fanfare, no warm welcome by
pollies or military officers. What’s
more, Australians on Civvy Street, by and large, seemed indifferent to these
lucky blighters who had risked their lives in appalling conditions. Frequently, Dad was spat at, jeered, sent to
Coventry, persona non grata. By the
very people who had voted to rush the poor devils to a veritable hell!
So what was Australia going to do with
all these mostly younger men in their twenties and thirties? Those who went back to Britain were
generally older and may have rejoined army units or tank units. I heard that one tank driver was saved when
the tank blew up; everyone else was killed, yet this survivor drove a tank in
the Berlin Victory Parade of 1945. He
wrote a book on Dachau. He never
returned to Australia and died at the age of ninety.
What will happen to us? Which way is the war going? Well might we wonder, but early in 1942 I
was attached to some orchardists in Shepparton and Kyabram. Seasonal fruit-picking was hard work,
especially in the heat of February and March, but generally pleasant
enough. I was paid at the official
award rate, four guineas for 40 or 44 hours per week. Housed in a primitive shed in the orchard away from the owner’s
family, I fell in with four friends in Kyabram. The teenage daughters who brought us milk daily I met again in
the late ‘80s, early ‘90s. All are
pretty fit now. I used to go to dinner
at the local pub in Kyabram. The
landlady took pity on us. We were given
a four-course meal for two shillings – at that time, the norm was three
courses. Dressed up in a shirt, tie and
jacket and looking like real foreigners to the locals, we would take a
twenty-minute walk into town every day.
By this means I made friends with some of the local inhabitants and
stayed in touch with others.
When the British Government offered voluntary service in the
Australian army, about four hundred Dunera boys enrolled in the Australian
Labor Corps (later known as the 8th Employment Company) and
transported to Caulfield racecourse. In
time, that number increased, although some gained early release or had
protected jobs in industry. Similar companies
existed to find employment for refugees.
We adhered to strict army routine with
the exception of drill and were issued with full kit but no rifles. After two or three days in Caulfield, we
were accommodated in the grandstand, then later in tents. I worked in army stores, munitions and food
stores and transported them to railways.
Some boys were stationed at Tocumwal ready to transfer from Victoria
gauge to NSW gauge. The company was
stationed in an open area of Parkville, Melbourne for the first twelve months,
before tents were erected for American troops due to arrive from May, 1941-
42. Many were sent to the Dutch East
Indies, which we helped unload onto trucks and railways and took to various
stores.
I experienced one trip to Eskona in
Switzerland. A fellow in a golf club by
co-incidence hailed from Dutch East Indies.
The camp was built for Americans, but my group was housed in tents. Since I was working for the American army, I
could be transported on their trucks and enjoy their canteen service.
The army unit then transferred us to
Broadmeadows on the outskirts of Melbourne.
Most of us slept out in tented rooms close to the camp area and walked
back to camp. Occasionally, there was
an army dinner, but often we’d descend on the town for food and lectures at
Melbourne Technical College or university.
I had previously continued courses by correspondence and night
classes. Weekends were mostly free
except for work parties on Saturday or Sunday, after which duties we were free
to do whatever.
Our first commanding officer was Captain Broughton of
half-Maori descent, a wonderful man to us.
He could identify with refugees and supported the notion that a man’s
religion was a personal matter. He
quickly grasped the nature of our background and the circumstances of our
internment in Britain, our Dunera experience and our internment in
Australia. Not only was he educated and
understanding, he got to know everyone in the 8th Australian Company
and helped whomever he could to get release from the army. Above all, he gave us new faith in
ourselves.
I was given discharge from the army in
February, 1946 in order to attend university on a full-time basis.
By war’s end many of us Dunera boys tried
to get rid of our German habits, such as refusing to speak German; however,
some persisted in speaking their native tongue – to their detriment! Many rid themselves of their refugee
appearance, but others didn’t. My own
intention was to become Anglicized or Australianised, without negating those affirming
qualities of my German origin.
Alas, Dad’s
only demonstrative emotion was anger.
Born in part from frustration, a sense of helplessness from no longer
having a meaningful role in society.
Pretty quickly he’d become an outcast.
Took to drinking at home instead of the pub. His rages became more predictable, more ugly, more
threatening. The Vietcong were no
longer the enemy. Now it was my mother
lined up in the cross-hairs!
I advised Mum
she had to leave Vince, my poor wreck of a father, for her own safety and
well-being. Which she did. Found herself a little bedsitter and managed
to start work again. But, of course,
fate plays its own tricks. Around 1987
the public disregard for Vietnam vets underwent a major sea-change. Sydney staged a Welcome Home Parade for the
vets and this time the public cheered them.
Five years later in Canberra, a national memorial to the Vietnam
veterans was unveiled.
But that was
all too late for Vince. He’d been dead
six years. Took his own life with an
overdose of barbiturates. The grog didn't help.
Eleven years after starting a university
course in Zurich, I was finally awarded my engineering degree in
Melbourne. I had no difficulty
obtaining employment in that field. A
job with Heine Bros, a big trading firm in Melbourne, was arranged by another Dunera pal. This was a company that fostered business relations
with Germany, so I was obliged to reconsider my opinion of German people. In fact, I had several happy experiences
with those I encountered. It is evident
that the present generation no longer exhibits that superiority complex that
characterized the Nazi years, thank goodness!
Then there were those old friends from
Germany who sought to learn about my wartime experiences, but alas others who
didn’t even enquire about my Dunera days. ‘We were under such a
dreadful bombardment,’ they’d gabble on.
‘You couldn’t imagine. Seven
whole weeks. Most of the inhabitants
have fled. Or died in the streets, if
not buried under the rubble. Dusseldorf
is now a dead city. Even those lovely
trees that lined our streets are mere skeletons, as you can see. In March the Americans occupied the
Oberkessel. Those of us who remained
were ordered to shovel away the rubble so their jeeps could drive around. They say over six thousand Jews were
murdered in the east . . .
For them, I had nothing to say.
Michael
Small
September 3-October 8, 2012; January
12-17, 2015
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